THOUGHTS

So I just about starting crying today thinking about Rachel going to school for the first time. The kids just grow up so fast. Only one of our kids went to preschool and I just have always felt that my kids needed to be home with me until they started public school. Now that it is time to start I am getting a little nervous. HECK, they are at school with their friends and teachers longer than they are at home. Rachel is so excited and that has really helped me. She is such a social person and loves friends so I know she will do well in that area. I can't believe I will have three in school. Is this a sign of me getting older? NAH. Can't be. Well tomorrow it is. I will post their first day of school pictures in the morning. Don is drilling into me that if I am going to cry -----wait until the bus drives away. I am sure it is that easy. I cried when the boys went to school for the first time. I think I have cried every year for Caleb on his first day because of certain circumstances but I think I am getting better about that. Their school is HUGE. They don't even allow the parents to come into the school to drop the kids off on the first day. That is so weird to me. They stress that the kids need to come to school that first day either riding the bus (if that is their main mode of transportation) or carpool (if that is how they are coming). So I think that maybe that is the hardest thing. In Washington we always took the kids into the school and into their classes and it felt special. I don't know. I guess I am just a baby and I know I will get over it. I am a crier by nature and it isn't something I have been able to control very easy. It isn't like I can just shut it off like a faucet or anything. I am very thankful for my kids. They bring me a lot of joy and even alot of headaches but they are my life and I can't even ever remember my life without them. Was there ever such a thing? I am grateful they have the opportunity to go to school and learn even here in Virginia where they only have ONE 15 minute recess. OH DON"T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT ONE. They will be fine. It is me I am worried about. :)