Friday, April 3, 2009

The tears won't stop

I know this seems dumb. But today was 'just one of those tough days'. I am so glad I was able to talk to Don on the computer. It really helped me have a much better day UNTIL....THIS.....


Mayah and Rachel were playing in the basement. When I first saw Mayah's hair I about died. I couldn't even believe it. The thing that makes it strange is that I was just thinking about how I hear so many girls cutting their own hair and how grateful I was that Mayah had not done that. I allow the kids to use scissors so that they aren't curious about them and I was hoping that it would help them not want to cut their hair. Well Mayah cut her hair a little bit but then Rachel finished it off for her. I still cannot believe this. I know it may be small but I will tell you that I do NOT like red hair. I am sorry. But I relate it to getting made fun of when I was younger. I hated that people teased me for the color of my hair. So I was hoping that none of our kids would get this 'curse'. I figured that I would pass this along especially since Don's gotee grows in red and he has a brother with red hair. So the chances of NOT having a redhead were very slim.

I remember our oldest and when he was born. He came out a redhead. He really was the most adorable baby EVER. So I didn't really care. I was just hoping it would be our only redhead. Then the next was born and I was so glad he didn't have red hair. When I found out I was pregnant with our first girl I literally prayed that she would NOT have red hair. This is probably the dumbest thing you have all heard but I just didn't want our kids to be made fun of. It seems silly but it was important (at the time). Then our next boy came along and he was a redhead too. And so our last....It was a surprise. I found out it was a girl and I remember praying that if she did have red hair PLEASE PLEASE let it be curly. I LOVE curly hair. I have sister with curly brown hair and it is just gorgeous. I also have a niece (who used to have curly hair). That was until she cut it off. And you guessed it!!! It never grew back curly. Mayah is known for her red curls. SHE always ALWAYS gets comments on her hair. Well I am pretty sure the comments will still come but not for the same reason.

I have NO clue what to do with her hair now. I do not cut hair and I don't know if I should take her in and have them cut the other side to look like the cut side or what. Plus this will look pretty weird in the Easter pictures.

OH this really made me cry. I am very sad. I loved Mayah's hair and it was a part of who she was. OK so if you think I am a dork just keep it to yourself. It will soon be funny but for now just let me cry and be sad.

GIRLS. GEEZ. Do they always have to cut their hair? I don't think I have ever met a mom that has not had this happen. Who am I to think it wouldn't happen to me.

8 comments:

Emily Merchant said...

Oh, Lisa,
We have shed tears at our house over cut hair too, and my girls have neverhad the beautiful, full head of curls that Mayah does. My heart can just ache with you over this, no matter how trivial it may actually be.

Both my girls have cut their hair numerous times. Most recently, Maggie cut hers to the scalp in parts the day before Elsie Jane's blessing. My strategy has always been to fork out some money and pay someone to try and even things up a bit and then just wait.

I know it seems bad, but in not too much time Mayah will have a darling curly little bob. Good luck!!!!

ericksonzone said...

You poor thing. As I read I just wanted to reach out and give you a big hug. I know what it's like to have one of those days when the being strong seems to fall apart and you just can't keep the tears at bay any longer. And oh what beautiful hair she had too. I'm sure you'll get to that point when this will be funny, but it won't be for a while. And a salon might be able to clean it up to look really cute. You never know.

Emily and Nathan said...

I remember doing that as a little girl. My Mom was so mad. I know it is hard to believe most people think I was perfect. ; ) Well I guess the truth is out. The good thing about hair is that it does grow. Good thing too!

John & Rebekah said...

We feel your pain. My brother trimmed my hair once but he butchered my dolls hair. I still have the doll and she still has no hair:). Luckily my hair grew back.

Geneva is just sad over this too. She absolutely hates to have her hair cut or even trimmed. She thought maybe you could find a really cute hat/bonnet for Mayah until her hair grows back:) (I really screwed up Josiah's hair once because he wouldn't hold still, so Geneva got him a hat to wear when we went out until it grew back). Good luck:)

As for your prayers when you were pregnant, I just have to tell you I did a similar thing. John's side of the family produces children born with hair but the hair is so white you can't tell there is hair. I prayed hard that should my children take after John's side of the family that they woud at least be born with hair people could see and with eyebrows darker than their dad. [side note: first impression of John was that I had never met anyone without eyebrows. Turns out he does have eyebrows they were just so white I couldn't tell]. I lucked out and both were born with the auburn type hair but of course it lightened up and can hardly see the red now.

God must have a sense of humor to hear some of my prayers:).

I hope today is a better day! Rebekah Losee

Pattie D said...

OH Lisa! I feel your pain...I feel bad you think redheaded is a curse, I love my red hair! Of course red wasn't as big a deal as were the curls, I hated my curls (both a curse from grandpa I think...LOL and I hope he is too as he listens to all of us). Now, I pray my little grandbabies will have curls, little Sophie and Ty-kell both have curls...I hope they stay! I have shed tears this morning with you...feeling you pain I guess. I vote to take her somewhere, get a start on a cute style the YOU will feel good about. Hope you can listen to conference this morning and hope you feel better about this soon, not that you need to laugh anytime in the near future....thinking about you.
hugs
tricia

PS and I think you are right everyone mom deals with this...can laugh now and did laugh when she wanted to go to beauty school

Pattie D said...

Lisa,
You make me want to live close to all my girl cousins...not that the boys are bad...just I don't have many of them...LOL!....Like 4 all together on both sides! Thanks for your sweet comments to me. I feel a sense of kinship with you and that my dear cousin is a great feeling, especially this saturday morning...enjoy the day.
hugs
tricia

ray-ray says said...

I feel for you, Lisa! Her hair is gorgeous! And at least it will be short while the weather is hot, right?!

Shaunae said...

You are a buff girl. We have yet to experience the cutting of hair by a child but I am sure it's one experience that is a requirement to get into heaven. True trial! :)