Zach's test resluts

This morning as I walked on the treadmill I ususally stop at 3.5 miles. But today I was deep in thought and ended at 4.1 miles. I was trying to form in my mind what I wanted to post. This is my journal so sometimes I may have info in here that is only important to me and my family but it works perfect because I am not good about getting a pen and putting it in my real journal.

The dr. called on Friday to let us know that they may have found 'something' on the EKG but they needed to actually see Zach to be totally sure. I guess that the shape of the chest can also mimic a rare dangerous heart disorder. And that until they examined Zach and did another test they wouldn't know for sure. At first my stomach was in knots.

But in the last couple of days I have been at peace. I feel very strong and very humble. I feel that whatever Heavenly Father has in store for our family is just another test to be endured. Ofcourse I am hoping for a clear test and no problems but I also know that my Heavenly Father loves me and loves Zach and the rest of our family and that whatever happens is for a reason. He knows all and He has the TOTAL picture of everything in this life and the life to come. I am actually amazed at how calm I feel. I attribute it only to my faith in God. I know that my diligence (just in this last month) in my scripture study has helped me to stay focused. Normally I would be a wreck. Prayer has helped and I am truly again grateful for the gospel. I can't imagine living life without it. Thank you mom for being such a wonderful example to me and helping me to see how very important this gift is. It is my life. It is the most important thing in my life.

Do not feel sorry for us. All is wonderful and we are doing great...even with Don gone. This is just another lesson. If something is wrong we will just take what is given to us. If everthing is fine and there are no issues we will be most grateful. Honestly, I never dreamed I would be at such peace with this. But I am and I am grateful for everything and for such a loving Father who cares and knows and understands us all. I couldn't be happier.